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okay..so things are good with the office manager which is good. That’s making life a little easier…now I am in the process of booking 6 musicians for my jazz and blues concert..what a freaking nightmare..all these fools want to be paid in cash. Who gets paid like $10k in cash?? Then I just found out their might be some piddly ass town concert like 25 minutes from my venue that’s also free. That is a problem. Probably not the end of the world…but they are courting one of

anyone want to be an office manager?

Cuz ours is on the outs. Today made it official. I am so tired today and I did not do one ounce of work. I spent the entire day doing office manager shit and wedding shit. That is a sad sad thing. I really should have done something in IT type work. I seem to be good at that. Although, I am good a event planning – the wedding will be a true test of this.

My mother finally got her stupid engagement party invitation. Basically, we are having an engagement party when we are home in May – I sent out the invites to the fam and basically everyone got theirs before my mom – so she was all pissy at me – like I am in charge of the freakin US postal service. Now she knows what it looks like.

Honestly, can I go on two honeymoons. a pre-wedding and post-wedding?? At this rate I am never going to make it to next May. I have a headache.

Stupid people suck

So, this office manager we have is a complete dumkoff. I swear to god..honestly..so our copy machine went down and he needed to reconfigure a setting on each computer. He did it on three computers and that was it..so none of the rest of us could print. Don’t you think something like that should be taken care of?? I figured out how to do it on my own and did the remaining computers – but is that my job? I don’t think so..Then my boss yelled at me because I rolled my eyes at him. Lovely work drama…

I think we found the wedding location this weekend. WillowDale in topsfield. I am very excited. We are going to look at a couple of other locations – but this will most likely be the place. However, my mother is dead set on ruining this day for me. There is so much to tell I don’t even know where to begin. let’s just say..she is stupid.

What a shitty day….outside!

Wow! It’s sleeting in April. Come next april if this is the case I am really going to be freaking out. It’s been a slow day..I hate slow days..and I am so sleepy today..and no rest in sight. Tomorrow is Friday at least, however, I don’t get to go home. I’m going to the Chippendales!! YAY! That should be fun. Then we have a busy..busy day of site visits starting at 9:30am! We are starting at The Commandant’s House in Charlestown Navy Yard, then to WillowDale in Topsfield, then to Endicott – Misslewood in Beverly. I’m trying to squeeze one more appt in if I can..if not..we have an appt on Sunday at Gore Place, in Waltham. Oh! and on Sunday we have a surprise baby shower..this weekend does not allow for sleeping. boooooo!

The good news is that I have Monday off. Thank you patriots..whoever the hell you were. Monday is a federal holiday called Patriot’s Day. It’s huge in Boston. The Red Sox always have a day game and the Boston Marathon is also that day..and I don’t give a shit because I will be sleeping!

I’m not allowed to say anything bad about groomzilla

His feelings got hurt. But for real, he hates everything I love..basically I’m only allowed to like what he likes. If I bring a new idea to the table. He usually hates it. So I found this website http://www.wonderfulgraffitiwedding.com/ the have the most amazing stuff. Not necessarily for weddings, but for your home. They make the words and phrases that you stick to the wall and it looks like someone hand stenciled them on. It’s amazing! BUT Austin hates it! Why?? He said it is not a selling point. When we decide to sell the house people will be turned off by that. –you can paint over it last time I checked. I’m just gonna do it. The problem is I can’t do it myself. I would def. need assistance.

Anyway..Dawn and Decker ..my matron and maid of honor are coming to visit! YAY! Only 17 days! We are going to have so much fun!

I got so caught up in searching for wedding stuff..I forgot about this

So in my free time..I now am searching for wedding dresses, location in both Boston and IL, bridesmaid dresses, ideas for wedding invitations, etc. It’s endless. The amount of crap that goes into a wedding is never ending. I really need to write on here more because it is such an outlet. So let’s see where are we…Austin in a groomzilla. He want’s to have black roses (because their unique) hello!!!! they are the flower of death…a helicopter and fireworks. I think he thinks we are the vanderbilt’s or something. We have started looking at venues. We went to the Lyman Estates (www.lymanestate.org) in Waltham. Which was lovely and we have a busy weekend of site visits planned on Saturday. We are also going to a place called Endicott Estate tomorrow. Busy..Busy..

Then we have been looking at wedding invitations and my god! We are def. making ours. We were at Crane Paper Co. (only one of the nicer paper stores in Boston, of course) and for 25 invitations was $635.00 Yes, I typed all that right. 25 invitations for $635.00 that doesn’t include response cards or envelopes. isn’t that nice. I’m sure there are others that are cheaper..but of course I wouldn’t look at any of those.

I’ll be glad when July 2008 is here!

I will be using this as my outlet for venting for the next year!

So, I don’t want to have a wedding. I want to get married…just not have a wedding. This process sucks! I’ve only be engaged a short time and already..I spend most nights crying about what I’m going to do. I have my mother on one end..she thinks this is her wedding. Forget about what I want. Then I have Austin on the other hand..who is just a stubborn as my mother. And again, forget about what I want. I actually think Austin might walk down the aisle with his groomsman and me and my bridesmaids will wait patiently at the front. I don’t know why things can’t just go easy.

(sigh)